Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Falling Forward

My life:

Interviewing for a teaching job I tried to show off my spiffy new, as yet untried curriculum for the requested 10 minute presentation. Mistake. My brain couldn't keep up with my mouth which kept blabbering inanity emphatically. My funny anecdotes and engaging examples were Nil, nada, non-existent. My mind was blank as printer paper, bits of thought scurried across the canvas and disappeared into dark corners to hide and pant heavily waiting it out.

Oh mind, why did you abandon me in my hour of need?

Sanguine. I've told everyone in the office I'm sanguine. The old, it's-out-of-my-control so "everything happens for a reason" crap we buy into when we can't affect the outcome. When did I become the kind of person who hijacks and hyphenates phrases because she's too lazy to make an effort to find the right word?